I Don't Know How to Feel

Hey everyone, sorry i don't usually post twice a day but i feel like i really need to write how i'm feeling and my emotions down just get them off my chest.

Because right now the only way i can shortly summaries how i'm feeling is; you know when you shake a fizzy drink and you go to open it and it explodes everywhere? well, that's exactly how i'm feeling right now. I have so many things i want to say fizzing up inside, but i don't have the confidence to say them aloud not even to my closest friend(s) so that is why i am writing this blog post.

I always have to lie to everyone and pretend that i'm the happiest girl in the world, oh if only that were true. I miss being young and having absolutely no worry in the world, what great times they were. Why do we have to grow up? when people say it's a trap they are more than right.

I am 78 days clean (i don't even know how i managed) i think the fact that i lost my blades and couldn't find them for weeks is the main reason I've lasted so long. If my friends knew i self-harmed i don't know what they would do, probably speak about me behind my back and call me an attention seeker *sigh*

On the other-side i'm more suicidal than ever. I seem to have these phases of sadness and nothing but sadness, you know when it feels like you've been hit full speed by a train of depression? (does that even make sense?) well i seem to have those phases very often. I'll just be getting better becoming a teeny tiny bit happier by the day and then the world's just like 'lol nope, not today' and i become even more depressed and suicidal than the last time, im typing so fast i don't even know if what im saying even makes sense right now, im sorry.

I don't know i have this gut feeling my friends hate me, you know there's always that one person in the group that everyone hates? yeah? well i think that's me. I just feel like they're happier when i'm not around, you know? As if they feel like they can be more themselves when i'm not there? which makes me sad and although i can't be my true self in front of anyone no matter who it is, if someone can't be themselves round me it really upsets me.

I'm going to be going on a diet because everyone who's really skinny is loved by everyone.
If i was skinny maybe people will start to notice me, maybe people will start to like me, maybe a won't be an embarrassment to be seen with. I will be starting one of those 'Ana Diets' the ones i showed you in my previous blog, most of them have great results, especially the ABC diet.
Hopefully people will begin to notice my weight lose and actually see that i care a LOT about my appearance. Everyday i look in the mirror i just want to cry, my reflection sickens me, all i see is fat fat fat oh and more FAT. But that will change, in 50 days time expect a blog post where i reveiw the ABC Diet and show before and after pictures. I may even do a shortened version of the ABC Diet to see how i get on and if i can notice progress already.

but for now i shall go, i hope you have enjoyed this blog post and also my other blog posts. If you have anything specific you'd like me to write about DM me on Instagram (thinxjpg) or twitter (FloralMisery) or even just comment below!

Ana Diets

So for today's blog post I'm going to be giving you useful 'Ana diets' I'll also be inserting an image of the calorie intake allowed so you can just screenshot and follow. 

1) The ABC Diet - I think most people know about this diet and it has some AMAZING results. 

It's crucial you know that after day 50 you HAVE to slowly return back to a normal diet, because if you jump straight in to eating normal and binging you will gain all the weight back! 

2) The 2468 Diet - I haven't heard of any reviews for this one, I don't think it's as popular as the ABC Diet but is probably a lot easier if you haven't dieted before. 

3) The Laurifel Diet 

4) Alice's Diet - easy to follow, quite low calorie intake although there's no fast days, so if you can't fast then this is the one for you. 

5) Jade's Two Week Slim Down Diet

Hope these diets help you! I'll be trying these diets out some time so expect a blog post on a review of it. It will include before and after pictures and also what I thought about the diet. 

Update

Hey everyone, I really hope you're enjoying my new blog and finding it useful. 

I want to make it EVEN better. But I'm not sure what else I could upload. I was thinking maybe a food diary? Or a workout routine? Different diets etc?

I'm not too sure if you could leave your suggestions in the comments below or sent me a DM on Instagram (thinxjpg) that would be incredibly helpful! 

Thankyou to everyone who reads my blog posts I appreciate it so much 

How to: Prevent Binge Eating

1. Whenever you eat (normal eating), stop throughout the meal and count to 100 or set the food down and do something else for at least a minute. This will help you practice stopping eating and will make it easier to stop yourself when you start to binge.
2. If you live alone, do not keep "bad" foods in your house. If there are things you'd be tempted to binge on cover the box with a thinspo/reverse thinspo picture or cover it so only the nutrition facts are visible.
3. If you catch yourself binging, immediately throw the rest of the food in the toilet and flush it. The trash can will work but the toilet is better because there's no way you can go back and get another bite.  You will feel very powerful and in control. It's not wasting food either because no matter how you look at it it all ends up in the toilet anyway!
4. Try to get away from all or nothing thinking. One mistake doesn't ruin your whole day and no matter what you've already eaten it is still better than more and half a box is a HUGE difference than a whole box. Every calorie counts! Instead of just giving in try to salvage the rest of the day with negative calories and exercise so you end it on a good note.
5. Never say, I'll do better tomorrow. Say, I'm doing better NOW!
6. If you find yourself binging all the time or constantly feeling the urge to binge try increasing your daily calorie intake. a daily intake of 600 calories that you can maintain is better than a daily intake of 400 with a couple 1,000-calorie binges thrown in.
7. Try thinking about other foods if a particular craving is too intense, you will switch to wanting the other food you thought about and then you can distract yourself from that. It's not just filling time though you have to get your mind off it completely (but only for less than a minute!) and you won't want it.
8. If you don't want to increase calories, try increasing the frequency of meals without increasing calorie intake. If you're less hungry you will think more rationally about what you eat even if you are still consuming very few calories. Check the safe food list for snacks to keep you on track.
9. An occasional sudden jump in calorie or food intake can actually help you overcome plateaus (when weight loss stops for no apparent reason) by increasing metabolism and digestion and helping bring your body out of famine mode. However, keep it controlled, decide what and how much you will eat in advance, and choose foods with nutritional value. Be careful with this if you are prone to compulsive eating. Also this method is not always predictable and you can still gain weight, especially if the calorie increase is too dramatic or if your metabolism is damaged or slowed.
10. If you binge do not dwell on it, just immediately start thinking proactively and distract yourself with positive thinking and activities. Negative thinking, especially guilt feelings, can become a cycle of thought and behavior. Do something that will get you back in the thin mindset and just focus on what you are doing now and in the near future.
11. Emotional eating is a leading cause of weight gain. Emotional eating happens when you subconsciously associate the food with an emotion, such as love, comfort, security, etc. If you suspect you eat emotionally keep a log of your emotions along with your food, focusing especially on those occurring before, during, and after eating. Identifying the feelings leading to a binge can help you identify what the food represents to you and find something to replace it.
12.  Buy a couple bags of raw mixed veggies. Before you binge, you must eat either one or both of the bags. You also must eat 1 serving of brown rice. By now you should either be too full to binge, or if you are still craving, only be able to eat a little bit of the bad food. 
13. Whenever you make food, arrange it carefully so it looks beautiful. This will help you pay more attention to your food and how much you're eating. It also gives you time to reconsider eating it.
14. Eat in the same place every day. At the table is best, not in your room or in front of the TV or computer. Focus especially on the first three bites; after that any pleasure from eating subsides. Chew each bite carefully, 10-30 times, and count. These are good habits to get into that will help you stop binging, or at least slow you down.
15.  Allow yourself to have ONE SERVING of a crave food. Plan in advance when you will have it and how frequently you're allowed to have them (once a week, once a day, etc). Even pastries or high-calorie treats will probably be under 400 calories. You can adjust the rest of the day's food around the craving food. This will keep you from deprivation-induced binging, and teach you to indulge in a non-binging, pre-planned, controlled way. 
16. Keep your hair, nails, and makeup done. Dress well and make sure you always look your best. Keeping a perfect image will motivate you to eat perfectly, and remove suspicion that anything is wrong with you. Waking up early to get ready burns calories too.

Fasting tips

Hey everyone, I decided to write a post on fasting tips. These tips help me a lot! Especially the first few hours into my fast because they're always the hardest. I really hope these tips help you. 

Spin around in circles, it will make you too dizzy and nauseous to eat.

Always have water with you.

Drink ice cold water when possible.

If you feel hungry, drink some hot green tea, the heat can suppress your appetite.

Caffeine suppresses your appetite as well.

Chew sugar free gum.

Take a nap.

Read.

Clean something.

Take a shower or bath.

Whiten your teeth.

Go for a run.

Do some crunches.

Stretch.

Do yoga.

Try enjoying hunger pangs.

Weigh yourself.

Look at your self naked and pinch your fat.

Take a nice long walk, with or without your dog.

Try 0 calorie Mio water enhancers.

Look at thinspo if you feel hungry.

Go on Pro Ana blogs.

Make a Fasting Journal and write about how you feel during the fast, why you want to fast, and the benefits of fasting.

Make a list of "bad" foods. Periodically, cross one of the list and pledge to never, ever eat it again. Eventually there will be none left.

Munch on some ice, it will trick your brain.

Make your own list of tips you think will help you.

Always have a To-Do list so you are never bored.

Try to stick to plain, distilled water. Zero calorie soda can make you gain weight in the long run, but if you feel it is necessary, go ahead and drink DIET drinks only.

Watch people eat and notice how disgusting it looks.

Dance like crazy to an upbeat song.

Make an After-Fast food plan to slowly introduce different foods back into your diet so you don't gain all the weight back.

Make a weight loss blog, you wouldn't want to disappoint your followers by failing your fast, right?

If you're new to fasting, try a juice fast first.

NEVER break a fast with a heavy meal.

The first 3 days are the hardest, so just think about how good you'll feel once you conquer those 3 days..

Eat light the night before you begin the fast.

Try drinking a large glass of water at least once every hour.

Be prepared!